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Goldie

07/09/09 at 03:31 AM   Reply with quote #1 I can't sleep I plan on getting the test tomorrow. My best friend her boyfriend died from Aids about 10 years ago; I'll just call her "T".  I had always admired "T" she was top model gorgeous and had a large circle of friends. After her boyfriends death her friend cut her loose, they accused her of being infected.  We had already been friends over the past 15 years and had just been reunited after loosing contact for about two years.  I am more of the quiet reserved type so when her party buddies were no longer friends I was still there. That's how we became best friends. She had me drive her over to he hangout just so she could show off how beautiful she was.  "look at me I am fine nothings wrong with me it's been two years and im fine."  "T" belived the power of god was protecting her she refused to get tested she would not consider it a posiblity because she had the faith of divine healing.  Well "T" was weak once in a while did'nt want to do much but still as pretty as ever. As time passed she sometimes would have trouble getting over a cold then be a bit weak. Still she kept up her house and looked after her children held it togather.  Then one day she says shes taking medication for thrush that won't go away and shes losing wieght because she cant swallow. Still refuding the HIV test and prayuing for the dive healing. I visit her again now she has skin lessoin on her flawless skin. I don't htink that girl ever even had a pimple in her life! She's showing me theses purple things on her back, they resemble leeches.  Still she insits it's not Aids or Hiv not testing. Next thing you know she in the Hospital again very ill and dying she calls me to take her a bite to eat she can't stand Hospital food. I take it to her it's so hard not to judge because I am HIV negitive. I, want to refuse but I still go because she my best friend, a true friend . I want to be just like 'T" socialble beautiful intlegent witty and kind. I wanted everything she had except the HIV/Aids I see she's so sick now the significant thing I notice about her she is out of her wits talking giberish. I can see she is in so much pain at all levals. I am so sad for her. Stupid me, I knew THROUGH HIV AIDS  at risk not becasue of her but my own life. I just cut off a relationship with my ex who was very permisuious and curious.  tonight I sit here after thesse past few years of going thought the same symtoms I saw In "T" fatigue loss of intrest becasue of the tiredness Thrush I need to get tested now I don't want to wait like :T: did until im hospitalized losing my mind I used to be afraid of knowing but know that my symtoms of worsen I am scared and want to face the fact that I was with a parter I knew he was risky but I was selfish to my own family just to justify the wreakless ness of my selfseeking pleasures ant the end whae I wanted to cut it iff from my ex I did insit that he wear a glove  ok after five years of no protection that was going to change something. I have a lot of questions and research to do Loading...

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